don't judge male by his cock!

dengan cinta !

My boyfriend is kind, actually. But sometimes he can't control his emotion well. He's a sort of a bad temper person. I understand that, but sometimes I've got frustrated of it. Yeah ... that's him ..

I was sick for days, he took care of me. I asked for pudding. It's shocking, he made it by himself. This is the touching part: ini buatnya dengan cinta lho! hahahahaha.

I didn't think that he could be such kind of -what is it- romantic. hahahahaha. I love you, bib!

oh , i miss you , working !

I was suffering from typhoid for around a week. It's not easy to get permission from my office. I keep thinking about the reimbursement of being absent for days. It's okay, at least I'm healthy! Staying at home so long will kill you. I miss you, working! I miss the messy desk full of paper and pictures, the catering that's not nice (sometimes), the manager that makes me shivering, my friends who look hectic, my students who often make me shore throat.hmmmm.... 

it's been 8 days

this song really makes me nggerus all the time

while remembering my Den Baguse Ngarso!

My world without you baby seems so cold
can't live without you baby I miss you so
I was a fool cause I know I was letting you go

It's not the distance baby that made me go
We never see each other and it made me know
I would give up all my life if you come home tome

Baby I couldn't lie that I miss you so
you keep saying goodbye and I keep saying hello
Baby I realize that I love you more
each time

And I know it's your future and I understand
I can't be someone baby that you think I am

I just can't stand to be far away from you
I had my doubt will I couldn't wait for you
baby I made some mistakes but you know that is true

Tonight I'll be wishing that you would come home to me
but you if you're not coming I just wanna let you see
baby I am not fine cause I want you back to me tonight 

it's been 8 days, anyway.

wish me luck as you wave me goodbye ...

is it over ?

is it over, dear ?

when the bar is empty, where is the happiness ?

i like going to the bar.

drinking, smoking and dancing. 

feeling happy, then going home.

but when i get up, i've just got dizzy.

when the bar is empty, where's the happines?

v.i.n.t.a.g.e

live in my own decade

what's wrong with v.i.n.t.a.g.e ??

Penelope

- money

- performance

they will never guarantee your happiness

i miss you grandma !

after reading an article in kaskus, i remembered my grandma

she did bad things , but I have to forgive

forgive and forget ...

forgive...

forget...

forgive...

forget....

i forget to forgive !!

FIFA WORLD CUP

when a ball can make you really broke !!

toilet

kebiasaan yang baru saya sadari:

saya selalu menutup mata saat pipis di toilet umum

PORN

senang mengabadikan tubuh yang tak berhalang
      padahal hanya iseng belaka
      ketika birahi yang juara
      etika menguap entah kemana

      oh nafsu menderu deru
      bikin malu...
      oh nafsu menderu deru
      susah maju...

      rekam dan memamerkan badan yang lainnya
      mungkin hanya untuk kenangan

      apakah kita tersesat arah
      mengapa kita tak bisa dewasa

nafsu memang sudah merajalela

working

simple sentences but hard to do:

love your job !!

love working on sunday

love working while others are having holiday

but i love it !!

hahahahaahhaahaahah

almost perfect saturday night

i'm watching the band playing the jazz music

romantic melody

i'm thinking about you

if you were here

it would be perfect, my dear !

kalian !

tertawa terbahak-bahak
seperti tanpa beban

tapi kalian menyedihkan

hahaha

what a dog !

you're pathetic

you're just lonely

but you've disturbed me

you've made me out of atmosphere

a dog could be a friend

and

a friend could be a dog

what a dog !
ups..
what a friend !

occupation

dunia kerja tidak seenak yang saya bayangkan saat masih kecil

waktu masih TK saya ingin menjadi pegawai bank

waktu SD saya ingin menjadi guru

waktu SMP saya ingin menjadi dosen

waktu SMA saya ingin menjadi guide

waktu saya kuliah semester-semester awal saya MASIH ingin menjadi guide

lalu....

kenyataannya

menjadi guru privat bahasa inggris dengan gaji yang memprihatinkan
saya pernah

menjadi guide meski cuma sebentar
saya pernah

dan sekarang....

saya menjadi guru bahasa inggris

saya menjadi penerjemah freelance
dengan nominal yang bisa membuat tersenyum

siapa yang bisa menebak

kita akan menjadi apa dan siapa suatu hari kelak

i don't see any happiness on it ..

- keuangan

- skripsi

- andreas leksana

memikirkan yang saya sebut di atas membuat saya mual dan pengen teriak !

sepertinya memang saya harus melewati masa sulit sendirian !

Dremolen

Being in the higher place makes me dizzy, but i liked the euphoria of trying this dremolen. hahaahhaa. Vanie, next trip where will we go then? is it keraton? :D

A W A S !!

Permainan ini bisa membuat GILA !!

r e p l i k a

- rok mini
- rambut panjang
- highheels

semua replika di dalam ataupun diluar sana
tampak sama dan seragam

I hate to watch that waste box

Here, in my boarding house, it's a common to see my friends spending their time to watch on TV *sigh*. They watch sinetron. What a very bad TV program it is !! Hahahaha. That's up to them. Decide what the best for you to watch, because i am sure, what we watch will influence our thinking. Waw !! I am so happy that i dont like any sinetron and i am seldom to turn my TV on. So, here we go guys. Decide what do you want to watch, Watch that is beneficial for you !!

for our friends from ATAMBUA

We gained money for our trip to Prambanan Temple.

m a s a k e c i l

Ingat saat dia menggendong saya untuk ikut belajar kelompok bersama teman-temannya. ingat saat dia membela saya waktu dimarahi simbah. Saya menangis waktu melihat dia jatuh dari sepeda. Saya tidak mau makan kalau tidak bareng dia. Saya marah kalau dia tidak mengajak saya kemana-mana. Masa kecil saya sangat indah waktu itu. Merasa mempunyai saudara, meski bukan saudara kandung. Dia sepupu saya, meski sekarang dia sudah lupa rupanya. Terima kasih sudah sempat menjaga saya waktu itu. Senang melihatmu sukses dari jauh. Semoga kita bertemu kembali dengan melupakan kebusukan keluarga kita. Bagaimana pun kita saudara.

friends

i want to bottle them together because they are colorful and beautiful

t r a i n

you walk towards and dissapear with the train goes

u move so fast with the lust that keep me silent

and the floor is red

you stand up satisfied


you are the biggest mistery.